choices

I'm presented with choices again.

I love democracy and free will and all, but sometimes I wish that all decisions were made for me.

Cos I know that as horrible as it sounds, if I screw up there's someone else to blame.

That if I regret making a choice then it isn't my fault at all.

But because I AM allowed to choose, I'm always faced with dilemmas.

And currently I'm thinking about whether I should go for touch rugby competition on 28th may or whether i should go for the desaru trip with mcs.

Shereen wants me to go, and god I really wanted to go with her as well but after finding out the date of my competition I don't know what to do.

Cos my captain talked to us and told us that we are already quite deprived of competitions and we shouldn't let this one get past.

But the thing is, if I choose to go for the competition and I don't even get into the team, then all would have been in vain.

This is exactly the choice I had to make between pre-U sem and Italy trip.

And in the end what happened?

The Italy trip was over-subscribed. I couldn't go.

And I lost my chance of going for pre-U sem.

Is that a sign? Does it mean that I should just go for the desaru trip cos exactly the same thing's gonna happen?

I'm just freaking confused. And I have to make a choice by tomorrow. Crap.

Hasim's test next week.

I seriously dunno how to start studying. No, scratch that.

I dunno how

where

what

when to start.

At least I know WHY I have to study. Cos I don't wanna fail.

I'm glad I did pretty average for Bala's test. Guess it just shows that studying does help.

K baking cookies now.

Pretty sad cos they don't look so hot.

But they taste really nice! Wondering if I should bring some tmr for Sabs to try.

Hmmm. We'll see.